The last two days have been really nice. Jason and Alaina went on their frist "Daddy/Daughter" trip together for three days/two nights. They went to a nearby island. So I've been home with Caleb, which has been really nice because 1) I have gotten some really good alone time with Caleb which is rare when Alaina is around and 2) Since Caleb sleeps so much I have gotten some much needed alone time. It is amazing to sit at the computer for more than five minutes in a row without having someone need me. "Mommy, I have to go potty." "Mommy, I need some milk." "Mommy, I want to play Clifford." "Janet, can you get Caleb a bottle?" "Janet, can you help me for a minute." "MEOOOOOOWWWWWW" (um, that would be the cat, Alex, crying because Caleb is carrying him around by his neck again.) So yea, the alone time has been good.
BUT,the alone time is dangerous, too. Um, yea, a Jen Wilson sale at scrapbook-bytes. I felt so good about myself because I went to a Mikasa Dish outlet we have here in Penang today and DIDN'T BUY ANYTHING. I thought, "my husband would be so proud!" So what did I do? Went to the Jen Wilson sale and bought a TON of stuff. But hey, at 47% off, who can blame me? However, I must say that I better get scrapping before Valentines Day when Shabby Princess updates her shoppe! I have a little rule for myself that I don't buy new kits until I have used all my other ones at least once. So...I have a LOT of scrapping to do before SP and her cohort of AMAZINGLY talented designers knock our socks off at the Shabby Shoppe Grand Re-Opening.
I had a little feeling-sorry-for-myself-melt-down this morning. I won't go into details because I NEVER share about this kind of stuff with ANYONE but hey, when you are writing like this is your journal, it's hard not to say something. So anyway, feeling sorry for myself. Have you ever had one of those days where you just wonder what in the world you are doing and if there is anything you are good at? Probably not, considering anyone who might read this probably digi-scraps and you are all so amazing. Well that and my sister who doesn't digi-scrap but is an AMAZING artist too. I had one of those mornings. Anything I think I can do, someone can always do better. It's okay now, though. After a few tears (again, a rare thing from me but pregnancy hormones can do that to you) I got Caleb out of bed and saw just how stinkin' cute the guy is and said to myself, "At least I make BEAUTIFUL children." And as all you moms know, no matter what anyone else says or thinks *YOURS* are the cutest, the best. So, I am better than all of you at something (**wink wink**)
Speaking of cute, I am dying without my camera. I insisted that Jason take the camera on his trip (uh, hello, how cute are daddy/daughter trip pix going to be?) but I feel like my camera is a permanent appendage to me and I don't know what to do without it. What if Caleb does something really cute (like empty out 10 gallons of water from the water cooler onto the floor again) and I can't take a picture? My hubby really needs his own camera. But I have a hard time justifying the expense of getting him a new one (he wants one of those expensive little compact-fit-in-my-pocket type things) when I COULD use the money to go towards a new DSLR for me? Hmmm, tough life decisons here =)
So, back to feeling bad about myself. I SO WANT to try to do some designing of digi-stuff but have so little confidence. I make stuff, think it looks good, then do something silly like go to a JW sale and think NEVER IN A MILLION YEARS could I be good. So, I crawl back into my hole and think no. My other problem is that if I try something once, and fail, I RARELY, IF EVER try again. So sending my stuff to a consignment store and not hearing anything makes me say forget it. Oh well. I did have fun (I made that stuff on my banner as one of my first attempts at a kit). Maybe I'll post the whole preview here. Maybe not. I'll have to give that one some thought.
Have a happy day. Happy Scrapping.
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